Unintended Meglomania
I am an army of one
doomed to demise at my own hands
as I resist the temptation
to rally unloyal troops
~defeat…better than giving them the opportunity to say no.
They pretend to care
reeling me in
hook, line, sinker
no better cliché
~describing the soulless I’ve been surrounded by
Offers of help
I turn down
and can see the relief in their eyes
but when I find the nerve to ask
~always other things to do.
This will break me.
This will hurt.
And I’ve not the energy left
To do more than cry.
Yet, within me exists the illusion
I can do this.
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doomed to demise at my own hands
as I resist the temptation
to rally unloyal troops
~defeat…better than giving them the opportunity to say no.
They pretend to care
reeling me in
hook, line, sinker
no better cliché
~describing the soulless I’ve been surrounded by
Offers of help
I turn down
and can see the relief in their eyes
but when I find the nerve to ask
~always other things to do.
This will break me.
This will hurt.
And I’ve not the energy left
To do more than cry.
Yet, within me exists the illusion
I can do this.
Brian Miller is rocking the mic for OpenLinkNight at dVersePoets. Would love to see you there!
Comments
"They pretend to care
reeling me in
hook, line, sinker
no better cliché
~describing the soulless I’ve been surrounded by"
"Offers of help
I turn down
and can see the relief in their eyes
but when I find the nerve to ask
~always other things to do."
"Yet, within me exists the illusion
I can do this."
...and one can of course, do what needs to be done, since the 'universe' or 'cosmic consciousness' is there
to assist us, even if we don't recognize it for what it is. Most of us, when we allow ourselves to flow with 'it' get those moments of, "now how did that happen?" when we least expect them...
Excelsior
Roger ☺
Slow down a little. Don't burn out- we need your light.
Pop-o Moskowitz
Don't ever forget, dear Natasha, that you have a whole army of poets here behind you... whenever you need us.
I turn down
and can see the relief in their eyes
but when I find the nerve to ask
~always other things to do." if that's not the truth, I dont know what is... at the end of the day, the only person you can depend on at all times is you...
but the funny thing is that mostly, we CAN do this. and we do.
but every so often we must stop everything and care for ourselves. pull back, go quiet, recharge.
and sometimes, we simply accept that what does not get done, will not get done. and that's almost always okay, too.
as you can tell, i can relate :) great write!
I have felt this before. victim of my own kindness so to speak.
can i just say... i love you.
xoxoxoxoxox
Cheers,
Mark Butkus
I can do this." ... Mmmm, it's that illusion that allows people to step into greatness. Sometimes imagination and impossible belief turns into reality.
~Shawna
rosemarymint.wordpress.com
Army of one is going to be a hard one, always good to have a few good men (or woman) behind you.
and you drop the depth charge too:)
its war - nobody wins; but some fight... hard enough to count :)
I can do this."
It's the best line, for me. Not so illusory, I'm sure, in your case. Very nice job on this, Natasha.
No megalomania, this... you CAN do it, and just proved it!
http://thepoet-tree-house.blogspot.com/2012/03/fog-at-dusk-is-crowded.html
But none has left me truly sad until today's.
Again, courageous and true. A lesson for me and all. xox
The situation you describe is not uncommon.It is amazing what an army of one can accomplish and sometimes God smiles and sends the kindness of a stranger. I'm glad you wrote this poem.