Apparitions & Misguided Obligation ~ #Poetics @dVersePoets

Apparitions and Misguided Obligation

Are you like me? Fighting voices and ghosts

living within the memories you allow to define

who you are, who you were,

all the people you’ll ever be?

It is constant…their cries

vibrating, decorating

every moment to come…shading

shadows, defining borders

setting limitations…

For a brief time I thought myself

strong enough to resist their influence.

Are you like me?

Delusional?

Thinking you can actually ignore them

when they control every word

that flows from your pen?

You write for them you know…

if they are all you hear.

At night, when darkness falls

and I think I am alone,

I ignore their shadows

as they manifest within this now dimension

telling me there is no purpose here

for my mission, for my truth.

when morning comes

I realize

they are winning.

Who is daring enough to write pointless words

in a world where no one reads?

Who is crazy enough to present a new way of thinking

in a world where no one thinks

their thoughts hold value?

You lose yourself to their noise

To this misguided sense of obligation

they play within your plan.

Winding you up, sending you off

laughing when you stumble

as you try to exist within this world they have

convinced you YOU’VE created…

The world I want is there

I KNOW it is.

It comes to me in voices too

through the ether

invisible…yet real.

Stronger than ghosts of memories

whose time has come and gone.

Uniting

Inviting

Providing worth and purpose

Providing strength

To the voice that was once smothered

To the voice that now sings

In her knowing

There is worth to her delusions

Merit to her plan

And NOTHING but the smoke of shadows

Behind this misguided sense of obligation

That one time convinced me that to live

I had to suffer.

And to write anything beyond a sales pitch

Was pointless.

Karin (AKA @ManicDDaily) is prompting us with our call to duty today at Poetics.  Bring your pens to dVerse and answer her call! Also posting this as NaPoWriMo for today. Can't believe I'm actually pulling that off!