Bury Me

Who do I want to be today?

Opportunities fly at me from every direction.

I wish I could make you understand the strength it takes not to duck.

To not run back to my bed

Pull the covers over my head

And fall back to the dream.

I'm wise enough to know

It will never come true.

Your wise enough to know

The safety that comes with that.

If I can keep you there on the fringes,

Painted in shadows & stardust

Perhaps I can stave off the disappointment.

Pretend I know what I'm doing.

There's so much I want

That I will never have.

I accept the truth.

Wanting breeds desire

Desire is the breath of life.

I will reach up and grasp this opportunity.

The one that will fill the void with dollars.

Erase time from my agenda

So perhaps my thoughts and my words will cease.

I would be a fool to hide.

To not lend length upon length

To this stretching to make ends meet.

I know money can't buy happiness.

But it can buy you ways to help you forget your misery.

I'll still have the hours between midnight & dawn

To bleed to the page

Cry between the lines

And hide if I have to.

I'll bury the real me there.

It's a dark she knows all to well.

N.Head

2013